Here comes the briiiiide..... Okay, well, the bride will be coming in 2011. :)) The past 24 hours have been crazy! Actually, the past few days have been crazy. I've done more shopping this week than....well, okay, I've done more shopping for MYSELF this week than I've done in a year. I am pleased to say that all of my Christmas shopping is done! Aside from the week as a whole, I'm going to recap yesterday/today's events.
Yesterday was kind of a lousy day. I tend to overanalyze things on a daily basis but some days are worse than others. Anywho. J had ask me a few days ago if I could watch Rane while they went out with his agent. Of course, I said yes, Rane is one of the only children I have a tolerance for babysitting. But he's basically my godson, so that's my excuse. I got there, visited for a while before they left, and right as he was leaving he asked if I wanted to see "something" (regarding the Grammys, but other than that I can't say anything else about it). So he walked in the office and back out holding a folder.... I opened the folder and I literally almost cried. I wish I could share what was in the folder, but let me just say........ it put my mind back in perspective. Back to square one. Back to the exact point where I began, and somehow amongst everything this year I lost it. I'm not complaining, I wouldn't trade 2009 for anything. But I also realized that I've been so afraid to lose what I've gained, I'm getting comfortable in a place that might not be my home plate. I've forgotten my dreams and my inspirations.... both of which are a huge part of me... and losing them mean losing a part of myself. It also put my advantages in perspective and broadened the possibilities of the next year. Sometimes I can't even believe opportunities like these are available... things that you dream of your entire life, and they seem so unreachable, you can't imagine how you'd ever get there. Then one day, you start to see how things slowly unfold and by letting go and letting things happen.... unimaginable events occur. I'm so excited for 2010. My fear is gone and I'm stepping back and letting the future unfold because I know everything will work out.
Alright, beyond one of my many life discoveries, comes the real kicker to last night. I didn't end up getting back to my parents house until 12:30am and my sister and her bf were on the porch talking. I walked in and shockingly my mom was still up........ if you know my mom, you know this is WEIRD and something definitely has to be up. She walked in to the kitchen and long story short, told me Cody (my sister's boyfriend) had planned on proposing to Nikki. We waited....and waited.... and waited... and finally at 1am she came in the front door with her hands entwined in Cody's, tears streaming down her face and told us they were engaged. I hugged her and we all sat in the kitchen for an hour re-capping their relationship and began the process of wedding plans. It was a magical night to say the least. It's so hard to believe my baby sister is ENGAGED! They will both graduate college in Dec of 2010 and they plan on marrying in the summer of 2011. I am maid of honor... this could get interesting. Life is falling together and sometimes I can't help but wonder what has happened to time and the years that have gone by. I just want to freeze life sometimes because I don't feel like I have enough time to savour them. All I know is life is at it's sweetest right now, and I hope this is not the middle or the end, but only the beginning.
Goodnight lovers.
And when all else fails...
Lovelovelove.
LK
